I am a passionate perfectionist. It’s a very frustrating combination, because not only do I want everything I do to be perfectly executed, but I also invest my whole heart and soul into the things I want to turn out perfectly. This is a cycle that frequently ends in disappointment, and I’ve never been one to enjoy disappointment. Then again, who does enjoy disappointment?
This year I found myself disappointed a lot. Some disappointments were due to my passionate perfectionism, but some were completely out of my control. So what do you do when you get hit with something you didn’t expect that you didn’t ask for or desire at all?
Christ did not come to give us a life free of hurt or disappointment. He came to give us life that we may live to the FULL (John 10:10). When we’re hit with disappointment, we are not called to shut down. When we’re faced with trials, we are not called to give up. We are called to be equipped with the fruit of the Holy Spirit to be able to find peace and joy in times of trouble so we can dance upon the disappointments in front of us.
So what can happen when we lay our troubles down at God’s feet and start dancing upon everything that disappoints us?
Here’s what happened to me.
Some crazy things I got to do in 2016 (in order of occurrence):
1. Cut ALL my freaking hair off
2. Talk to The Bachelor (Ben Higgins!) on Skype and go to the St. Louis Zoo in the same week.
3. Meet my favorite group of girls ever.
4. See Justin Bieber in concert for the first time.
5. Become bffs with my bff Sam.
6. Become assistant manager at JSP.
7. Break my toe at work for Snickers Ice Cream.
8. Go to YOUNG LIFE CAMP as a LIFEGUARD?
9. Sprain my ankle. Get a ‘Get Well’ milkshake.
10. Go to Fall Getaway, Fall Fall Getaway with my Cru Crew.
10-1. And have a cuddle session.
11. Get Baptized!
12. Turn 20
13. Score the best roomie on the planet.
14. Get hired to work as a desk clerk in Southwest (SouthBEST) Hall.
15. Make and maintain the best friendships a person could ask for.
I disappoint myself when I can’t find inspiration or motivation or the right words to say. When the food I cook doesn’t taste good. When I don’t follow a plan perfectly. When I don’t try hard enough. When I give up on things or on people. I know I disappoint others, just as others sometimes disappoint me. I’ve been really disappointed over the years. The only difference this year is that I learned to dance.
Like I said in a Facebook post on my birthday: how could I have imagined this life?
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21
Thanks for reading posts about my life and advertising over the last few months! Have the happiest New Year and stay tuned for more fun in 2017. 🙂